Epiphany and Agitation

First the Epiphany
There are people in my life who actually, truly, like me and care about me. Ok, this sounds bizarre, but it hit me like a ton of bricks in the last couple of weeks. Between the un-self-conscious fun I had at Baubo's karmic cleansing party with the Derby Lite girls, and the comfort I felt with some friends at my house to use a palm reading party I had won at a silent auction, I was struck with the number of people in my life with whom I feel truly at ease and comfortable. I was also amazed at how normal it felt to be a friend and part of the fun. As you can tell, because this was an epiphany, it hasn't always been this way. I am so grateful for my life, and these women who helped me see the light! Derby Lite girls and Neighbor Ladies, you guys rock!

Second the Agitation
After the rain, our house is fine. Others in my neighborhood aren't so lucky. A lot of people have water in their basements, and about 20 houses were evacuated with water (at least) to the front door. With most roads over the nearby river closed due to flooding, there has been a deluge of detour traffic in our neighborhood. Frustrated drivers clogging our normally quiet streets. Somehow the combination of the crazy traffic, 6 foot high sandbag walls holding back the river one block away to the north, and flooded streets and houses, one block away to the south, has left me feeling agitated and anxious. Like I should be doing something or waiting for something else bad to happen.

Why, you are wondering, am I putting these two disparate thoughts in one post? I'm not exactly sure except that they seem like a yin and yang thing to me today. I've taken comfort in my friends and my relationships, and then I'm feeling like the other shoe will drop with the honking horns and encroaching river. Life is certainly a lot like that. I'm banking on the yin, but willing to take on the yang.

It's like skating both skatewise (counter clockwise) and counter skatewise. One is easier, but you definitely need both to be a stronger skater.