Getting to Know You......

I love that song:

Getting to know you,
Getting to know all about you.
Getting to like you,
Getting to hope you like me.

Getting to know you,
Putting it my way,
But nicely,
You are precisely,
My cup of tea.

Why does it seem to take so long to get to know and like ourselves? Maybe it's just me. But I find the older I get the more ok I am with me. Maybe I've finally realized I'm stuck with me. But really, I find I'm not so bad. Yes, I have issues (too many and too sordid for this space for sure), but I find that I have strengths I used to deny, or twisted around to see as weaknesses in the past. I can work on the "problems" and be happier with the total end result.

Part of it is probably being reflective, and being able to sort out reality from internal mind noise, if I can quiet the internal nagging even a little, reality doesn't look so bad.

Skating, is a perfect case in point. I love Derby Lite (as you might have guessed). I love to skate, I love the women, I love the camaraderie, and having something that is just a little crazy (falling? check; slamming into walls? check; sparkly shorts? check). It is so much fun! And yet, mind noise can still get in the way. I should be faster, I should be more agile, I should be, I should be, I should be. STOP! IT'S FUN! I'm not a superstar, but I'm not a menace on wheels. That's the reality. The shoulds detract. They clutter the fun and the hard work to improve and be the best I can be, with "not enough" "need more". I'm finally learning how to turn off the spigot of mind noise. And then I can enjoy skating, and me, and life.

And that is how I hope to live my life in the rolling lane. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? Absolutely. (See photo with BIG smile at right!)